Stumble

STUMBLE - Written by Carroll Bryant 

I keep myself a low profile

Hide my eyes behind silent sighs

Thinking about the past

And all the girls who have come and gone

I try to discard reasons

Why you and I are so desperate

Knowing how you still feel

And all the while time is passing by

Your memory never fades away

And I stumble out of my mind

And stumble in your life again

It seems to happen all of the time

We just can’t lose

We just can’t win

And I stumble out of my head

And stumble into your arms and then

I see all the words you ever said

Until you say goodbye again

That’s just typical you

It’s so un-cool

Because I’m always stumbling out and stumbling in

I drink Martini’s in the morning

Close my thoughts and lock the doors

Feeling like a used tool

From all the times I never saw the signs

You make things so much harder

It’s difficult to fight this war

Knowing I’m going to lose

And all the while this fires burns

The misery flickers like a flame

And I stumble out of my mind

And stumble in your life again

It seems to happen all of the time

We just can’t lose

We just can’t win

And I stumble out of my head

And stumble into your arms and then

I see all the words you ever said

Until you say goodbye again

That’s just typical you

It’s so un-cool

Because I’m always stumbling out and stumbling in

Could you just please just give back my heart?

Or stop tearing it all apart

Could you please just give me a break?

Or stop giving me what you always take

Everything you give you throw away

I keep myself a low profile

Hide my eyes behind silent sighs

Thinking about the past

And all the girls who have come and gone

You come again and then you’re gone my friend

And I stumble out of my mind

And stumble in your life again

It seems to happen all of the time

We just can’t lose

We just can’t win

And I stumble out of my head

And stumble into your arms and then

I see all the words you ever said

Until you say goodbye again

That’s just typical you

It’s so un-cool

Because I’m always stumbling out and stumbling in

And I stumble out of my mind

And stumble in your life again

It seems to happen all of the time

We just can’t lose

We just can’t win

And I stumble out of my head

And stumble into your arms and then

I see all the words you ever said

Until you say goodbye again

That’s just typical you

It’s so un-cool

Because I’m always stumbling out and stumbling in

I Should Have Kissed You

I SHOULD HAVE KISSED YOU - Written by Carroll 

They say it’s a feeling

And soon it will go away

There’s nothing to compare it to

So I’m left with remnants of the day

It was your birthday

And somehow

I managed to take a bite of your heart

It was your birthday

And somehow

It ended way before it could start

I let you down

This I know

Now I am paying the price

What comes around

Goes around they claim

And it’s scaring me to know that they’re right

How could I have let you walk away?

What kind of fool am I?

I should have kissed you

And held you

Deep into the burning night

I should have told you I loved you

Instead of picking yet another fight

I lose control when I’m with you

My passion boils hotter than coals

I'm a lost soul and this is true

That’s not an excuse and I know

But hear me out for one more time

I’ll tell you all that’s on my mind

First things first and you will find

I should have just kissed you tonight

It’s so revealing

These emotions I wear on my sleeve

I keep on stealing and stealing

Dreams you fought so hard to believe

It was your birthday

And somehow

I was able to put it aside

It was your birthday

And somehow

It ended with you horrified

I am the clown

This I know

Now I am beginning to see

That up is down

And what I found in you

Is beginning to slip away from me

How could I have let you leave like that?

Do idiots grow on trees?

I should have kissed you

And held you

Deep into the burning night

I should have told you I loved you

Instead of picking yet another fight

I lose control when I’m with you

My passion boils hotter than coals

I'm a lost soul and this is true

That’s not an excuse and I know

But hear me out for one more time

I’ll tell you all that’s on my mind

First things first and you will find

I should have just kissed you tonight

This merry-go-round keeps on spinning

Gravity won’t let it stop

You keep on telling me everything you mean to me

I’m everything you think that I’m not

I let you down

This I know

Now I am paying the price

What comes around

Goes around they claim

And it’s scaring me to know that they’re right

How could I have let you walk away?

What kind of fool am I?

It was your birthday

And I let you walk away

It was your birthday

I should have kissed you

And held you

Deep into the burning night

I should have told you I loved you

Instead of picking yet another fight

I lose control when I’m with you

My passion boils hotter than coals

I'm a lost soul and this is true

That’s not an excuse and I know

But hear me out for one more time

I’ll tell you all that’s on my mind

First things first and you will find

I should have just kissed you tonight

But hear me out if you don’t mind

I’ll tell you now because it’s time

First things first, I am so blind

I should have just kissed you tonight

Frolicking Through The Flowers

FROLICKING THROUGH THE FLOWERS - Written by Carroll Bryant 

I frolic through the flowers of your discontent

Dark clouds are forming in the skies inside my head

Reading pages after pages of the letters that you sent

Falling on the words of every single thing you said

Where is my satisfaction?

Justice finds a way to escape me again

I’m - facing the end

I need you here with me

If only just to be a friend

Well, I will be so good God damned!

Roses aren’t so pretty when they’re painted black

Lie to my fucking face then turn around

And stab my back

It leaves me just a little bit of hellish

If not a little bent

Frolicking through the flowers of your discontent

I swim inside the pool of your sexy disease

Drowning in tomorrow in the waves inside my soul

First you said you’d stay and baby, that you’d never leave

Then at the first chance, you didn’t hesitate to go

Where is my human sacrifice?

I can’t hear a thing

Not even mental screams

I need you here with me

Even if it’s in my dreams

While everything is getting crazy!

Roses aren’t so pretty when they’re painted black

Lie to my fucking face then turn around

And stab my back

It leaves me just a little bit of hellish

If not a little bent

Frolicking through the flowers of your discontent

I pay the price that your heart did overcharge

Bankrupting the love I felt

Dealing with the shit you dealt

I - say this now because everything is gone

Our love is all and done

Now you got me on the run

I frolic through the flowers of your discontent

Dark clouds are forming in the skies inside my head

In the skies inside my head

In the skies inside my head

How I wish I was fucking dead!

Roses aren’t so pretty when they’re painted black

Lie to my fucking face then turn around

And stab my back

It leaves me just a little bit of hellish

If not a little bent

Frolicking through the flowers of your discontent

Of your discontent

Of your discontent

Of your history

Mood Swings

MOOD SWINGS - Written by Carroll Bryant

My mood swings are dictated by two major events

One of great kindness

One of evil

In between this there is peace

Tranquility

No disruption means … no disruption

My world

My universe

Faced with alignment of all my planets

Love heals the stars as I gaze up in the night sky

Waiting for a sign

Waiting for an arrival

I broke my own code

How can I expect others to keep to theirs?

I can’t … I won’t

I gave power over to me to the wrong one

Kindness?

I think not

Evil

Heartless to the very core

Trembling as I do ever since

Disruption has occurred

I exist now in purgatory

A wandering piece of flesh

Numb to all that surrounds

I see yet can’t be seen

Only visualized

By their imaginary visions and perceptions

I hear yet can’t be heard

Only taken at face value

Emptiness of soul

Evil

Touch and I can’t feel

Soft is the skin of emotion

Numb to the point of necrosis

To hear her voice is to suicide my thoughts

Play in the dark

Destroying the samurai within

My mood swings challenge me to change

Detour from the past

Back onto the road of the same

Evil

Too young for the power I handed over

Too damaged like myself

Too uncaring to matter

Now I drift

Just like the undead

Just like a fatality

Shock wears off

Denial sets in

Anger takes over

Acceptance is evil

My knowledge of questions

Can never out number

My knowledge of answers

Her love

Was not love

T’was a bed of mendacity

No wonder I toss

I turn

I sweat with penury

Distilled by her infection

Debauchery

Debasement

Evil

I reside for all of time in my mind’s eye

In my imperialism

Inside of my mood swings

Bliss

Love, Love, Love

LOVE, LOVE, LOVE - Written by Carroll Bryant

You know, I never thought I’d see the day

When you would shut me out this way

You don’t even have two words to say to me

I’ll never guess it once or twice

Why it’s so hard for you to be nice

What has happened to our good life to be?

Love, love, love - it’s the strangest thing

Love, love, love - it’s slipping away

Love, love, love - it’s slicing the skin

Love, love, love - it’s fighting not to win

I count sheep at night to help me sleep

Why are your promises so hard to keep?

We’re standing just about knee deep in it, you and me

You don’t give your intentions away

Never to surrender to the light of day

Let me deliver you in about anyway it can be

Love, love, love - can’t comprehend it

Love, love, love - I don’t know what to do

Love, love, love - feeling lost and abandoned

Love, love, love - comes and goes with you

When it gets so crazy baby

I feel sweet sensations inside of my heart

My soul devours everything about you

Until it gets to the point

Where everything starts falling apart

You’re destroying me and that’s the point

You’re ripping me into pieces

You know, I never thought I’d see the day

When you would shut me out this way

You don’t even have two words to say to me

Why won’t you talk to me?

Love, love, love - it’s a scary feeling

Love, love, love - doesn’t have a meaning

Love, love, love - never seems to want to stay

Love, love, love - is always slipping away

Your love is slipping away from me

You Don't Even Care

YOU DON'T EVEN CARE - Written by Carroll Bryant 

There’s an echo in my heart

And it answers to my tears

From when you hurt me oh, so hard

And you don’t even care

I’m frozen in this time

With my hands up to my ears

Going mad out of my mind

And you don’t even care

So come the days where all I do

Is lay in bed and think of you

Wishing that it was true

That you are thinking of me too

There’s a songbird just outside

It’s just sadly sitting there

Like me, it wants to fly

But it can’t because it tried

And you don’t even care

No, you don’t even care

If I lived or if I died

My funeral would be bare

From all the people I pushed aside

To think I did all that

Just to have you standing here

But you left and now you’re gone

And now I’m standing all alone

And you don’t even care

It’s not the pain that gets to me

But the manner which you could leave

And still my eyes just can’t believe

What they no longer wish to see

That you’re no longer there

And you don’t even care

No, you don’t even care

If I just melted all away

To know that love is so unfair

Having to live my life this way

To think what I could be

If I could turn and find you there

But there’s no morning sun around here

You made yourself perfectly clear

That you don’t even care

You brought the end on top of me

I find it hard to just conceive

That you don’t even care

And as my world slowly burns

And your world gently turns

You are a lesson I will never learn

You don’t even care

Our Hearts

OUR HEARTS - Written by Carroll Bryant 

The size of my heart
Could never hold the amount of love
I feel for you

There's too many thoughts
For my head to hold
That my mouth just can't find
The words

My eyes are blind to the vision
Of you and me
But my soul feels all

My soul feels love

You dance in wonderment
Inside my illusions
And delusions
And dreams

You live in my moments
Time that you have stolen
Away from me

There's never an answer
To all of my questions
Just whispers clinging in mid air

You're too real for me to feel
Yet feel for you I do
I feel for you, all that is true

A tear from your eye
Is a dagger to my heart
Know this and you will know it all

A smile on your face, a laugh
Is what keeps me alive
Know this and I will know it all

Know this, and we shall know love
Love in its plain form
Is love that lives in both of

Our hearts!

World Of Torment

WORLD OF TORMENT - Written by Carroll Bryant 

Here, in the middle of seduction

You bring me to my knees

Convoluting all my fantasies

I often have difficulty saying what I know I should say

It never comes out of my mouth that way

It’s a dark world that keeps tormenting me

Take the money, it means less to me than what you think

Steal the words I write

Go ahead, what are you waiting for?

Often times I wonder what goes on through your mind

Is it me?

Is it him?

Is it her?

Is it just a lonely breeze from Madagascar?

Here, in the center of your attention

I crumble

Wilting like a weed

You clearly close your thoughts to me

Where do you run and hide from me?

And why can‘t you bring me along?

Take the memories, they have faded anyway

Borrow your time while I play

And drink the fine wine of Etruria

Often times I squander the pesos I find on the street

Is it free?

Is it me?

Is it us?

Is it just another town to travel to?

There is no unlocked door in the tormenting world I dwell

I see heaven

I hear hell

Voices that dampen out like a squelch from a bat

In the belfry of my heart

In an old Victorian love we made so long ago

Then destroyed with our abandonment

We both made that decision, didn’t we?

Tell me something that the wind doesn’t know

Something that will cause frost bite to my anguish

Whatever you do, don’t say that

That of what I know you want to reveal

I already know you love me

But your love is hate

I love to hate that about you

Like you love to hate that you love me

You never will tell me, I know it

Here, in the middle of seduction

You bring me to my tears

Mimicking my fantasies

In or out of my life, you make my world a wreck

You make my world a volcano

You make my world a world of torment  

Mummified

MUMMIFIED - Written by Carroll Bryant 

In the heart of every man

There lives the soul of a woman

And in the truth of every night

She lives deep inside

Until the man is mummified

In the story of true lovers

They will define a new beginning

And in the touch of their life

They will be buried alive

Until their legend is mummified

Every song will have its bird

Every king a queen

Every sigh will just be heard

By the way that they hold, and their spirits are set free

In the heart of every man

There lives the fire of a woman

And in the front of his lonely eyes

She appears to him each night

And leaves the man so mummified

Not every wish was made to come true

Not every wind will blow

Not every thought will be pure and new

Sometimes she will stay, and sometimes she will go

Not every star was made for its shine

Not every hope so real

Not every moment lives in Divine

So much for the way a true heart can feel

In the heart of every man

There lives the soul of a woman

And in the truth of every night

She lives deep inside

Until the man is mummified

In the story of true lovers

They will define a new beginning

And in the touch of their life

They will be buried alive

Until their legend is mummified

And in a world that’s black and white

There’s a place they two can hide

Until they’re both so mummified

Like A Shadow

LIKE A SHADOW - Written by Carroll Bryant

I can see the language in your eyes

Telling me secrets

Telling me some angry lies

There’s no more reason to pretend

The messages you’re sending me

Leading me to the very end

You’re scaring me into a frenzy

Are you crazy?

Do you love me?

Or are you just using me?

I’m hiding like a shadow

Looking for your heart-glow

Trying to find my way back out of all your yesterdays

Tell me something that I don’t know

Like you’re never going to go

Never going to go away

Until then it’s here I stay

I’ll be true to what remains

Another dog and pony show

Hiding like a shadow

I can feel emotions boiling over

Burning my skin

Pushing me to the arms of another

Where can I find a new appendage?

This water rolling down my face

There’s just too many parts that’s leaking

You’re daring me into a new beginning

Is this one ending?

Do you feel me?

Or are you just abusing me?

I’m hiding like a shadow

Looking for your heart-glow

Trying to find my way back out of all your yesterdays

Tell me something that I don’t know

Like you’re never going to go

Never going to go away

Until then it’s here I stay

I’ll be true to what remains

Another dog and pony show

Hiding like a shadow

Here it is

In one small word

Like I love you

Can you say you love me too?

Here we are

In one big world

Full of  “I don’t knows”

Where did it all go?

Can you give me something true?

You’re driving me into a frenzy

Making me crazy

Do you want me?

Or are you just confusing me?

I’m hiding like a shadow

Looking for your heart-glow

Trying to find my way back out of all your yesterdays

Tell me something that I don’t know

Like you’re never going to go

Never going to go away

Until then it’s here I stay

I’ll be true to what remains

Another dog and pony show

Hiding like a shadow

Your Secrets

YOUR SECRETS - Written by Carroll Bryant 

So, you want to take a piece of me?

Your words are a fine place to start

Just smack me so hard until I can’t see

Spin my world around in its own misery

To be the dominate one

You’re the epitome Of everything

Of everything that’s wrong with me

Once upon a lonely time

You used to be on my mind

Now I’m just finding out

That you were never the one

Once upon a midnight star

I used to think I knew who you really are

But now I know you’re not the one

All the lies you told for fun

Has led me to believe

That you’re not the girl for me

Because girl, I can clearly see

You have more secrets than anyone

More secrets than the sun

And I can’t fight your secrets

No, you can’t take another bite

Of what you know you want from me

It starts with a flash of light in my eyes

The darkness is a place to hide

Living like a solitary one

You’re the cornerstone of all my dreams

Crashing down right in front of me

Once upon a lonely time

You used to be on my mind

Now I’m just finding out

That you were never the one

Once upon a midnight star

I used to think I knew who you really are

But now I know you’re not the one

All the lies you told for fun

Has led me to believe

That you’re not the girl for me

Because girl, I can clearly see

You have more secrets than anyone

More secrets than the sun

And I can’t fight your secrets

I raise my sword to battle

All of your little demons

And girl it is a struggle

I lift my head and hold it up high

To demonstrate

I’m alright tonight

I raise my sword to slay it

The dragon heart in you

And girl you know it

I lift my head to see the damage

To eliminate

All your fairytales

All your magic spells

Don’t look at me in that way

Girl, what the hell?

So, you want to take a piece of me?

Your words are a fine place to start

Just smack me so hard until I can’t see

Smack right out of my misery

Once upon a lonely time

You used to be on my mind

Now I’m just finding out

That you were never the one

Once upon a midnight star

I used to think I knew who you really are

But now I know you’re not the one

All the lies you told for fun

Has led me to believe

That you’re not the girl for me

Because girl, I can clearly see

You have more secrets than anyone

More secrets than the sun

More secrets than the sun

More secrets than anyone

And I can’t fight your secrets