Mood Swings

MOOD SWINGS - Written by Carroll Bryant

My mood swings are dictated by two major events

One of great kindness

One of evil

In between this there is peace

Tranquility

No disruption means … no disruption

My world

My universe

Faced with alignment of all my planets

Love heals the stars as I gaze up in the night sky

Waiting for a sign

Waiting for an arrival

I broke my own code

How can I expect others to keep to theirs?

I can’t … I won’t

I gave power over to me to the wrong one

Kindness?

I think not

Evil

Heartless to the very core

Trembling as I do ever since

Disruption has occurred

I exist now in purgatory

A wandering piece of flesh

Numb to all that surrounds

I see yet can’t be seen

Only visualized

By their imaginary visions and perceptions

I hear yet can’t be heard

Only taken at face value

Emptiness of soul

Evil

Touch and I can’t feel

Soft is the skin of emotion

Numb to the point of necrosis

To hear her voice is to suicide my thoughts

Play in the dark

Destroying the samurai within

My mood swings challenge me to change

Detour from the past

Back onto the road of the same

Evil

Too young for the power I handed over

Too damaged like myself

Too uncaring to matter

Now I drift

Just like the undead

Just like a fatality

Shock wears off

Denial sets in

Anger takes over

Acceptance is evil

My knowledge of questions

Can never out number

My knowledge of answers

Her love

Was not love

T’was a bed of mendacity

No wonder I toss

I turn

I sweat with penury

Distilled by her infection

Debauchery

Debasement

Evil

I reside for all of time in my mind’s eye

In my imperialism

Inside of my mood swings

Bliss