Thursday, August 31, 2017

Stumble

STUMBLE - Written by Carroll Bryant 




I keep myself a low profile
Hide my eyes behind silent sighs
Thinking about the past
And all the girls who have come and gone

I try to discard reasons
Why you and I are so desperate
Knowing how you still feel
And all the while time is passing by

Your memory never fades away

And I stumble out of my mind
And stumble in your life again
It seems to happen all of the time
We just can’t lose
We just can’t win
And I stumble out of my head
And stumble into your arms and then
I see all the words you ever said
Until you say goodbye again
That’s just typical you
It’s so un-cool
Because I’m always stumbling out and stumbling in

I drink Martini’s in the morning
Close my thoughts and lock the doors
Feeling like a used tool
From all the times I never saw the signs

You make things so much harder
It’s difficult to fight this war
Knowing I’m going to lose
And all the while this fires burns

The misery flickers like a flame

And I stumble out of my mind
And stumble in your life again
It seems to happen all of the time
We just can’t lose
We just can’t win
And I stumble out of my head
And stumble into your arms and then
I see all the words you ever said
Until you say goodbye again
That’s just typical you
It’s so un-cool
Because I’m always stumbling out and stumbling in

Could you just please just give back my heart?
Or stop tearing it all apart

Could you please just give me a break?
Or stop giving me what you always take

Everything you give you throw away

I keep myself a low profile
Hide my eyes behind silent sighs
Thinking about the past
And all the girls who have come and gone

You come again and then you’re gone my friend

And I stumble out of my mind
And stumble in your life again
It seems to happen all of the time
We just can’t lose
We just can’t win
And I stumble out of my head
And stumble into your arms and then
I see all the words you ever said
Until you say goodbye again
That’s just typical you
It’s so un-cool
Because I’m always stumbling out and stumbling in

And I stumble out of my mind
And stumble in your life again
It seems to happen all of the time
We just can’t lose
We just can’t win
And I stumble out of my head
And stumble into your arms and then
I see all the words you ever said
Until you say goodbye again
That’s just typical you
It’s so un-cool
Because I’m always stumbling out and stumbling in



Tuesday, August 29, 2017

I Should Have Kissed You

I SHOULD HAVE KISSED YOU - Written by Carroll 



They say it’s a feeling
And soon it will go away
There’s nothing to compare it to
So I’m left with remnants of the day

It was your birthday
And somehow
I managed to take a bite of your heart
It was your birthday
And somehow
It ended way before it could start

I let you down
This I know
Now I am paying the price
What comes around
Goes around they claim
And it’s scaring me to know that they’re right

How could I have let you walk away?
What kind of fool am I?

I should have kissed you
And held you
Deep into the burning night
I should have told you I loved you
Instead of picking yet another fight
I lose control when I’m with you
My passion boils hotter than coals
I'm a lost soul and this is true
That’s not an excuse and I know
But hear me out for one more time
I’ll tell you all that’s on my mind
First things first and you will find
I should have just kissed you tonight

It’s so revealing
These emotions I wear on my sleeve
I keep on stealing and stealing
Dreams you fought so hard to believe

It was your birthday
And somehow
I was able to put it aside
It was your birthday
And somehow
It ended with you horrified

I am the clown
This I know
Now I am beginning to see
That up is down
And what I found in you
Is beginning to slip away from me

How could I have let you leave like that?
Do idiots grow on trees?

I should have kissed you
And held you
Deep into the burning night
I should have told you I loved you
Instead of picking yet another fight
I lose control when I’m with you
My passion boils hotter than coals
I'm a lost soul and this is true
That’s not an excuse and I know
But hear me out for one more time
I’ll tell you all that’s on my mind
First things first and you will find
I should have just kissed you tonight

This merry-go-round keeps on spinning
Gravity won’t let it stop
You keep on telling me everything you mean to me
I’m everything you think that I’m not

I let you down
This I know
Now I am paying the price
What comes around
Goes around they claim
And it’s scaring me to know that they’re right

How could I have let you walk away?
What kind of fool am I?

It was your birthday
And I let you walk away

It was your birthday

I should have kissed you
And held you
Deep into the burning night
I should have told you I loved you
Instead of picking yet another fight
I lose control when I’m with you
My passion boils hotter than coals
I'm a lost soul and this is true
That’s not an excuse and I know
But hear me out for one more time
I’ll tell you all that’s on my mind
First things first and you will find
I should have just kissed you tonight

But hear me out if you don’t mind
I’ll tell you now because it’s time
First things first, I am so blind
I should have just kissed you tonight



Sunday, August 27, 2017

Frolicking Through The Flowers

FROLICKING THROUGH THE FLOWERS - Written by Carroll Bryant 




I frolic through the flowers of your discontent
Dark clouds are forming in the skies inside my head
Reading pages after pages of the letters that you sent
Falling on the words of every single thing you said

Where is my satisfaction?
Justice finds a way to escape me again
I’m - facing the end
I need you here with me
If only just to be a friend

Well, I will be so good God damned!

Roses aren’t so pretty when they’re painted black
Lie to my fucking face then turn around
And stab my back
It leaves me just a little bit of hellish
If not a little bent
Frolicking through the flowers of your discontent

I swim inside the pool of your sexy disease
Drowning in tomorrow in the waves inside my soul
First you said you’d stay and baby, that you’d never leave
Then at the first chance, you didn’t hesitate to go

Where is my human sacrifice?
I can’t hear a thing
Not even mental screams
I need you here with me
Even if it’s in my dreams

While everything is getting crazy!

Roses aren’t so pretty when they’re painted black
Lie to my fucking face then turn around
And stab my back
It leaves me just a little bit of hellish
If not a little bent
Frolicking through the flowers of your discontent

I pay the price that your heart did overcharge
Bankrupting the love I felt
Dealing with the shit you dealt

I - say this now because everything is gone
Our love is all and done
Now you got me on the run
I frolic through the flowers of your discontent
Dark clouds are forming in the skies inside my head
In the skies inside my head
In the skies inside my head

How I wish I was fucking dead!

Roses aren’t so pretty when they’re painted black
Lie to my fucking face then turn around
And stab my back
It leaves me just a little bit of hellish
If not a little bent
Frolicking through the flowers of your discontent
Of your discontent
Of your discontent

Of your history



Friday, August 25, 2017

Mood Swings

MOOD SWINGS - Written by Carroll Bryant



My mood swings are dictated by two major events
One of great kindness
One of evil

In between this there is peace
Tranquility
No disruption means … no disruption

My world
My universe
Faced with alignment of all my planets

Love heals the stars as I gaze up in the night sky
Waiting for a sign
Waiting for an arrival

I broke my own code
How can I expect others to keep to theirs?
I can’t … I won’t

I gave power over to me to the wrong one
Kindness?
I think not

Evil

Heartless to the very core
Trembling as I do ever since
Disruption has occurred

I exist now in purgatory
A wandering piece of flesh
Numb to all that surrounds

I see yet can’t be seen
Only visualized
By their imaginary visions and perceptions

I hear yet can’t be heard
Only taken at face value
Emptiness of soul

Evil

Touch and I can’t feel
Soft is the skin of emotion
Numb to the point of necrosis
To hear her voice is to suicide my thoughts
Play in the dark
Destroying the samurai within

My mood swings challenge me to change
Detour from the past
Back onto the road of the same

Evil

Too young for the power I handed over
Too damaged like myself
Too uncaring to matter

Now I drift
Just like the undead
Just like a fatality

Shock wears off
Denial sets in
Anger takes over

Acceptance is evil

My knowledge of questions
Can never out number
My knowledge of answers

Her love
Was not love
T’was a bed of mendacity

No wonder I toss
I turn
I sweat with penury

Distilled by her infection
Debauchery
Debasement

Evil

I reside for all of time in my mind’s eye
In my imperialism
Inside of my mood swings

Bliss



Wednesday, August 23, 2017

Love, Love, Love

LOVE, LOVE, LOVE - Written by Carroll Bryant



You know, I never thought I’d see the day
When you would shut me out this way
You don’t even have two words to say to me

I’ll never guess it once or twice
Why it’s so hard for you to be nice
What has happened to our good life to be?

Love, love, love - it’s the strangest thing
Love, love, love - it’s slipping away
Love, love, love - it’s slicing the skin
Love, love, love - it’s fighting not to win

I count sheep at night to help me sleep
Why are your promises so hard to keep?
We’re standing just about knee deep in it, you and me

You don’t give your intentions away
Never to surrender to the light of day
Let me deliver you in about anyway it can be

Love, love, love - can’t comprehend it
Love, love, love - I don’t know what to do
Love, love, love - feeling lost and abandoned
Love, love, love - comes and goes with you

When it gets so crazy baby
I feel sweet sensations inside of my heart
My soul devours everything about you
Until it gets to the point
Where everything starts falling apart
You’re destroying me and that’s the point
You’re ripping me into pieces

You know, I never thought I’d see the day
When you would shut me out this way
You don’t even have two words to say to me

Why won’t you talk to me?

Love, love, love - it’s a scary feeling
Love, love, love - doesn’t have a meaning
Love, love, love - never seems to want to stay
Love, love, love - is always slipping away

Your love is slipping away from me



Monday, August 21, 2017

You Don't Even Care

YOU DON'T EVEN CARE - Written by Carroll Bryant 



There’s an echo in my heart
And it answers to my tears
From when you hurt me oh, so hard
And you don’t even care

I’m frozen in this time
With my hands up to my ears
Going mad out of my mind
And you don’t even care

So come the days where all I do
Is lay in bed and think of you
Wishing that it was true
That you are thinking of me too

There’s a songbird just outside
It’s just sadly sitting there
Like me, it wants to fly
But it can’t because it tried
And you don’t even care

No, you don’t even care
If I lived or if I died
My funeral would be bare
From all the people I pushed aside
To think I did all that
Just to have you standing here
But you left and now you’re gone
And now I’m standing all alone
And you don’t even care

It’s not the pain that gets to me
But the manner which you could leave
And still my eyes just can’t believe
What they no longer wish to see
That you’re no longer there

And you don’t even care

No, you don’t even care
If I just melted all away
To know that love is so unfair
Having to live my life this way
To think what I could be
If I could turn and find you there
But there’s no morning sun around here
You made yourself perfectly clear
That you don’t even care

You brought the end on top of me
I find it hard to just conceive
That you don’t even care

And as my world slowly burns
And your world gently turns
You are a lesson I will never learn

You don’t even care



Saturday, August 19, 2017

Our Hearts

OUR HEARTS - Written by Carroll Bryant 


The size of my heart
Could never hold the amount of love
I feel for you

There's too many thoughts
For my head to hold
That my mouth just can't find
The words

My eyes are blind to the vision
Of you and me
But my soul feels all

My soul feels love

You dance in wonderment
Inside my illusions
And delusions
And dreams

You live in my moments
Time that you have stolen
Away from me

There's never an answer
To all of my questions
Just whispers clinging in mid air

You're too real for me to feel
Yet feel for you I do
I feel for you, all that is true

A tear from your eye
Is a dagger to my heart
Know this and you will know it all

A smile on your face, a laugh
Is what keeps me alive
Know this and I will know it all

Know this, and we shall know love
Love in its plain form
Is love that lives in both of

Our hearts!


Thursday, August 17, 2017

World Of Torment

WORLD OF TORMENT - Written by Carroll Bryant 



Here, in the middle of seduction
You bring me to my knees
Convoluting all my fantasies

I often have difficulty saying what I know I should say
It never comes out of my mouth that way
It’s a dark world that keeps tormenting me

Take the money, it means less to me than what you think
Steal the words I write
Go ahead, what are you waiting for?

Often times I wonder what goes on through your mind
Is it me?
Is it him?
Is it her?
Is it just a lonely breeze from Madagascar?

Here, in the center of your attention
I crumble
Wilting like a weed

You clearly close your thoughts to me
Where do you run and hide from me?
And why can‘t you bring me along?

Take the memories, they have faded anyway
Borrow your time while I play
And drink the fine wine of Etruria

Often times I squander the pesos I find on the street
Is it free?
Is it me?
Is it us?
Is it just another town to travel to?

There is no unlocked door in the tormenting world I dwell
I see heaven
I hear hell

Voices that dampen out like a squelch from a bat
In the belfry of my heart
In an old Victorian love we made so long ago
Then destroyed with our abandonment

We both made that decision, didn’t we?

Tell me something that the wind doesn’t know
Something that will cause frost bite to my anguish
Whatever you do, don’t say that
That of what I know you want to reveal
I already know you love me
But your love is hate
I love to hate that about you
Like you love to hate that you love me

You never will tell me, I know it

Here, in the middle of seduction
You bring me to my tears
Mimicking my fantasies

In or out of my life, you make my world a wreck
You make my world a volcano
You make my world a world of torment  



Tuesday, August 15, 2017

Mummified

MUMMIFIED - Written by Carroll Bryant 



In the heart of every man
There lives the soul of a woman
And in the truth of every night
She lives deep inside
Until the man is mummified

In the story of true lovers
They will define a new beginning
And in the touch of their life
They will be buried alive
Until their legend is mummified

Every song will have its bird
Every king a queen
Every sigh will just be heard
By the way that they hold, and their spirits are set free

In the heart of every man
There lives the fire of a woman
And in the front of his lonely eyes
She appears to him each night
And leaves the man so mummified

Not every wish was made to come true
Not every wind will blow
Not every thought will be pure and new
Sometimes she will stay, and sometimes she will go

Not every star was made for its shine
Not every hope so real
Not every moment lives in Divine
So much for the way a true heart can feel

In the heart of every man
There lives the soul of a woman
And in the truth of every night
She lives deep inside
Until the man is mummified

In the story of true lovers
They will define a new beginning
And in the touch of their life
They will be buried alive
Until their legend is mummified

And in a world that’s black and white
There’s a place they two can hide
Until they’re both so mummified



Sunday, August 13, 2017

Like A Shadow

LIKE A SHADOW - Written by Carroll Bryant



I can see the language in your eyes
Telling me secrets
Telling me some angry lies

There’s no more reason to pretend
The messages you’re sending me
Leading me to the very end

You’re scaring me into a frenzy
Are you crazy?
Do you love me?
Or are you just using me?

I’m hiding like a shadow
Looking for your heart-glow
Trying to find my way back out of all your yesterdays
Tell me something that I don’t know
Like you’re never going to go
Never going to go away
Until then it’s here I stay
I’ll be true to what remains
Another dog and pony show
Hiding like a shadow

I can feel emotions boiling over
Burning my skin
Pushing me to the arms of another

Where can I find a new appendage?
This water rolling down my face
There’s just too many parts that’s leaking

You’re daring me into a new beginning
Is this one ending?
Do you feel me?
Or are you just abusing me?

I’m hiding like a shadow
Looking for your heart-glow
Trying to find my way back out of all your yesterdays
Tell me something that I don’t know
Like you’re never going to go
Never going to go away
Until then it’s here I stay
I’ll be true to what remains
Another dog and pony show
Hiding like a shadow

Here it is
In one small word
Like I love you
Can you say you love me too?

Here we are
In one big world
Full of  “I don’t knows”
Where did it all go?

Can you give me something true?

You’re driving me into a frenzy
Making me crazy
Do you want me?
Or are you just confusing me?

I’m hiding like a shadow
Looking for your heart-glow
Trying to find my way back out of all your yesterdays
Tell me something that I don’t know
Like you’re never going to go
Never going to go away
Until then it’s here I stay
I’ll be true to what remains
Another dog and pony show
Hiding like a shadow



Friday, August 11, 2017

Your Secrets

YOUR SECRETS - Written by Carroll Bryant 



So, you want to take a piece of me?
Your words are a fine place to start
Just smack me so hard until I can’t see
Spin my world around in its own misery
To be the dominate one
You’re the epitome Of everything
Of everything that’s wrong with me

Once upon a lonely time
You used to be on my mind
Now I’m just finding out
That you were never the one
Once upon a midnight star
I used to think I knew who you really are
But now I know you’re not the one
All the lies you told for fun
Has led me to believe
That you’re not the girl for me
Because girl, I can clearly see
You have more secrets than anyone
More secrets than the sun

And I can’t fight your secrets

No, you can’t take another bite
Of what you know you want from me
It starts with a flash of light in my eyes
The darkness is a place to hide
Living like a solitary one
You’re the cornerstone of all my dreams
Crashing down right in front of me

Once upon a lonely time
You used to be on my mind
Now I’m just finding out
That you were never the one
Once upon a midnight star
I used to think I knew who you really are
But now I know you’re not the one
All the lies you told for fun
Has led me to believe
That you’re not the girl for me
Because girl, I can clearly see
You have more secrets than anyone
More secrets than the sun

And I can’t fight your secrets
I raise my sword to battle
All of your little demons
And girl it is a struggle

I lift my head and hold it up high
To demonstrate
I’m alright tonight

I raise my sword to slay it
The dragon heart in you
And girl you know it

I lift my head to see the damage
To eliminate
All your fairytales
All your magic spells
Don’t look at me in that way
Girl, what the hell?

So, you want to take a piece of me?
Your words are a fine place to start
Just smack me so hard until I can’t see

Smack right out of my misery

Once upon a lonely time
You used to be on my mind
Now I’m just finding out
That you were never the one
Once upon a midnight star
I used to think I knew who you really are
But now I know you’re not the one
All the lies you told for fun
Has led me to believe
That you’re not the girl for me
Because girl, I can clearly see
You have more secrets than anyone
More secrets than the sun
More secrets than the sun
More secrets than anyone

And I can’t fight your secrets