Nervous Breakdown (The Indian Wind)

NERVOUS BREAKDOWN (THE INDIAN WIND) - Written by Carroll Bryant

I gaze at the stars and I see someone 

Gazing back at me

The moon is sad because it's made of cheese

And the indian wind blows

The indian dances to the fire

The indian wind blows

As meaningless as time appears to be

It means nothing

Hands of a clock

Hands of time release me

And the indian wind blows

The indian is standing in the fire

The indian wind blows

Save me from the slaves

A flower grows inside my brain

The mushrooms are killing me

And I get so isolated laying in my grave

I feel so tired

I feel so all alone

The flower grows

Watch the flower grow 

I can't escape your petty pain

Your pathetic little lives are meaningless to me

I am not your soul

I am not your shame

The flower tries to grow in the chance

That it will rain

Legends live

Legends die

Run with me to suicide

I'll take you to that place

I'll take you to that hell

Eat your faithful heart

And die until you're dead with me

I want your company

I need you my love

And the indian wind blows

The indian is pointing at me from the fire

The indian wind blows

Poets live and poets die

Make love in my suicide 

I'll take you to that place

I'll take you to that hell

Eat your poisoned heart

And lie to you

You know I will

Am I the oracle that rapes you of your sin?

Can't I judge and not be true to the consequence? 

Lovers live and lovers die

Be born into a suicide 

I'll take you to that place

I'll take you to that hell

Eat your beating heart

And in your ruse I'll dwell

I need you my love

The indian wind blows

The indian holds me in the fire

The indian wind blows

The Lost Children

THE LOST CHILDREN - Written by Carroll Bryant 

Where are the children?

I can’t hear them laughing

I can’t see them playing

Where did they disappear?

Where are the children?

Are they somewhere crying?

Are they somewhere hiding?

Why are they not here?

I woke up out of a nightmare

The world had no more children

Nobody seemed to even care

They just went about their day

I went to search for them everywhere

Under every rock and stone

I looked here and I looked there

How could they just up and go away?

The future is at stake for you and me

Why can’t you believe?

The future is in their young hands

So hold them tight and teach them right

Let their spirits roam with their dreams

Where could they possibly be?

Where are the children?

I can’t hear them laughing

I can’t see them playing

Where did they disappear?

Where are the children?

Are they somewhere crying?

Are they somewhere hiding?

Why are they not here?

Love is the greatest gift that you can ever give a child

From the heart it can only live so temper it with care

The smile on their little faces will take you anywhere

Take you everywhere

I woke up out of a nightmare

The world had no more children

Nobody seemed to even care

They just went about their day

I went to search for them everywhere

Under every rock and stone

I looked here and I looked there

How could they just up and go away?

The future is at stake for you and me

Why can’t you believe?

The future is in their young hands

So hold them tight and teach them right

Let their spirits roam with their dreams

Where could they possibly be?

Where are the children?

I can’t hear them laughing

I can’t see them playing

Where did they disappear?

Where are the children?

Are they somewhere crying?

Are they somewhere hiding?

Why are they not here?

Where are the children?

I wanna hear them laughing

I wanna see them playing

Where did they disappear?

Where are the children?

I don’t want them crying

I don’t want them hiding

Why are they not here?

Please love the children

Because they’re just children

Tiny little children

Please, handle with care

Where are the children?

Tea Leaves

TEA LEAVES - Written by Carroll Bryant


I'm building my inventions like a castle in the sand
Revealing not a secret to those who understand
And if the grass just isn't greener doesn't mean I can believe
And the visions that I've claimed I've seen
Doesn't mean they're what I need
And so the story goes
How much have you seen?
The road isn't paved in gold on the way to soul

You can't see the future
It lives in a void covered in darkness
And yet you see your dreams shine through
In the colors of a rainbow
Who's chasing who?

The gypsy spirit thinks it knows
What you want to know
But you don't know
Close your eyes and I know you will hear it
You have to trust in me
And trust in the power of the tea leaves

I'm hiding my intentions like the man I am
Retaining not a moment as I'm free to just expand
And if the sky just isn't bluer doesn't mean I can't achieve
And the wind that I've claimed to have seen
Doesn't mean to blow away my dreams
And so the story goes
What are you willing to see?
You'll never walk alone on the road to soul

You can't live for the future
It never arrives because the moment is always now
N'tho you keep on getting older as you go
Night and day will keep coming back around

The gypsy spirit thinks it's free
Like you think it's free
But are you really free?
Close your eyes and I know that you will feel it
You have to trust in me
And trust in the power of the tea leaves

Face to face with time
It will blow your mind
What is yours I will make mine
And you can't shake hands with this
What is yours I will take it away
With my mind

And when the light shines down and penetrates your brain
Just like me you will be living again
And when the time is right it will go away
Just like tomorrow
Just like yesterday
And when you clutch the truth it will escape
With the lies you thought you would never say
Or repeat
And when the light turns off it will illuminate the place
And just like a passionate kiss
It will remain for days

On the edge of no return
Is a heart that just won't learn
You will learn the hard way

The gypsy spirit thinks it knows

What you want to know

But you don't know

Close your eyes and I know you will hear it

You have to trust in me

And trust in the power of the tea leaves

Trust in the power of the tea leaves

Trust in the power of it all

The Sting

THE STING - Written by Carroll Bryant

It’s been exasperating

Relationships can take a lot out of you

It’s not that I’m complaining

Even though sometimes I think I do

It’s been exhilarating

Despite knowing that you’re facing the end

Sure enough you know it’s raining

But the sun will pop back out again

It always seems to start with promises in the dark

Amnesia ensues with the light of the day

Then it all comes crashing down

And you lay there on the ground

Trying to analyze every single thing

So then it all just falls apart

And you can feel it in your heart

Dealing with the pain and suffering

Then you feel the sting

It’s now excruciating

Memories can take time to fade

So far you feel like fainting

From losing everything you made

It’s now perpetuating

Emotions that don’t seem to heal

Your soul’s evacuating

Everything you used to feel

There always seems to be something that she can’t see

Euphoria arrives a day too late

Then it all comes crashing down

And you lay there on the ground

Trying to analyze every single thing

So then it all just falls apart

And you can feel it in your heart

Dealing with the pain and suffering

Then you feel the sting

It always seems to end as enemies and never friends

The result of never having anything more to say

Then it all comes crashing down

And you lay there on the ground

Trying to analyze every single thing

So then it all just falls apart

And you can feel it in your heart

Dealing with the pain and suffering

Then it all comes back to you

Always racing to find the proof

Pieces of the puzzle can’t fit or anything

So then it all just disappears

You can feel it in the air

Dealing with the art of beggaring

Then you feel the sting

You can feel the sting

Exodus To Romance

EXODUS TO ROMANCE - Written by Carroll Bryant 

You feel this start without too much exaggeration 

Too real

My heart

My thoughts imagination 

You take the wheel and drive me to extremes

"I know" you say "and things couldn't be much better"

I hope you see the truth in all the explanations

Don't run away from the true touch of exploration 

I play the part of two fools in love

"I know" you say, "and things could only get better"

Why must I try to describe this feeling

When you already know exactly how I feel

Diamonds and gold

I like to be appealing

Am I appealing to your love?

Why must I try to defend my answers?

When you already know exactly all the reasons 

Diamonds and gold

I try to be be revealing 

Am I revealing enough?

You feel this start without too much consolation

Too real

My heart

My thoughts exoneration 

You take the wheel and drive me to exacerbate 

"I know" you say "and things couldn't be much better"

I hope you see the truth in all the inspirations

Don't run away from the true touch of infatuation

I wrote the book on what to do

"I know" you say, "and things could only get better"

Why must I try to describe this feeling

When you already know exactly how I feel

Diamonds and gold

I like to be concealing 

Am I concealing your love?

Why must I try to defend my answers?

When you already know exactly all the reasons 

Diamonds and gold

I try to be uplifting

Am I uplifting enough?

And things just couldn't be better

My love for you will sail

And things could only get better

Don't let my love come down

Heartbeat Mine

HEARTBEAT MINE - Written by Carroll Bryant

I walk down the road of my life

Always looking over my shoulder

I can hear footsteps following behind me

Will it get worse as I grow older?

Every day passes like a ghost

Each one bleeding into the next one

I live this illusion caught in my confusion

Looking at the light of the sun

People speak the word of the wise

Sometimes you don’t want to open up your eyes

Not everything you do is going to come back to you

Just know your love is alive

I just know my heartbeat is mine

There’s constant writing on the wall

Always trying to read between invisible lines

I can see discrepancies in almost everything

Never to read anything at all

Every night swims in a pool

Drowning in somebody else’s misery

My flotation device is trying to always be nice

Thoughts that roam wild constantly

People speak the word of the wise

Sometimes you don’t want to open up your eyes

Not everything you do is going to come back to you

Just know your love is alive

I just know my heartbeat is mine

I can tie up rainbows and make them flowers for your day

I know you’re still going throw those dreams away

You can live your life being mean to me every day

I’m still gonna love you no matter what you do or don’t say

I only wish you will stop acting this way

So as we walk down the road of life

Feel the hot rays turning colder

We can sense shadows looking at us all

It’ll only get worse as we grow older

Every thought becomes our intention

Each one more obscene than the next one

We live in squallier of memories growing taller

Always being blinded by the sun

I only wish you were the one

People speak the word of the wise

Sometimes you don’t want to open up your eyes

Not everything you do is going to come back to you

Just know your love is alive

People speak the word of the wise

Sometimes you don’t want to open up your eyes

Not everything that’s true will come back to you

Just know your love is alive

I just know my heartbeat is mine

The Road Back To Soul

THE ROAD BACK TO SOUL - Written by Carroll Bryant

The hour of the dawn is upon me

I arise to the glory of the vision of life

My mind will capture the moment 

My feet will take me to what I see with sad, lonely eyes

All of the wisdom I have acquired has taught me

That my knowledge knows nothing

Absolutely nothing

As some of what I think I do not believe

And at the point of when life turns full circle

The sun will be shinning on me

And so I fill my pockets full of gold

Take another look at the past and I know

I lost my way somewhere that I didn't want to go

And now I find myself searching for the road back to soul

The timing of a full moon clearly blinds me

I concentrate on useless things 

Come to grips with my despair 

In a momentary lapse of uncommon reason

Strip naked

Take a walk around the block 

And I don't care

All of the people look on with shame at my disguise

They can't look into my eyes or tell the truth

From those bitter lies

And I

To stand before loves majesty 

Standing all alone

And so I fill my pockets full of gold

Take a look into the future and I know

I lost my way somewhere that I didn't want to go 

But now I'm on the road back to soul

I am the president of the government in my own mind

 Let the rain pretend that it's cleansing me

The mist gets in my eyes

I am the the leader of the membership I self provide 

Let the rain pretend it knows me

And somehow I shall survive 

The hour of the midnight is upon me

Like a ghost it stares at me and haunts me

I feel my feet below me but I'm not allowed to run

The picture plays my memory but everything is snowy

And so I fill my pockets full of gold

Take another look at the past and I know

I lost my way somewhere that I didn't want to go

But now I'm on the road back to soul

And so I fill my pockets full of gold

Take a look into the future and I know

I lost my way somewhere that I didn't want to go 

And now I find myself walking down the road back to soul

And now I find myself ... walking down the road back to soul

Queen Bee

QUEEN BEE - Written by Carroll Bryant 

All she wanted was a pretty face

She didn’t care what was taking place

Inside my heart 

Messaging me everyday

Luring me in with her magical ways

She played me smart and she played me well

Broke my heart and left a trail

Of tears for others to follow

Damaged by a soul in her that is hollow

Shallow

What came first was her needs

What hurt worst was the blood

I bled

She made me bleed

With the words

She used

Like a razor

To cut me

And then she cut me off at the knees

Fired up her troops

On my head, career, she pooped

Stinking up the joint

Making sure to make her point

That she was queen bee

What hurt worse was the blood

I bled

She made me bleed

With the words

She used

Like a razor

To cut me

And then she cut off at the knees

All she wanted was a pretty face

She didn’t care what was taking place

Inside my heart

Inside of me

The Presence Of Evil

THE PRESENCE OF EVIL - Written by Carroll Bryant 

Shadows of a stranger lurking at midnight

Hungry for danger 

Feeding that appetite 

A perpetrator searching for a victim

A fallen saint looking for a sin to commit 

A desperate moment dancing on the dawn

Eager for pleasure to battle right or wrong

Another murder in the name of vanity

A scared spirit of our insanity

There's a presence of evil

A presence of evil

There's a presence of evil standing where you are

There's a presence of evil

A presence of evil

There's a presence of evil

Satan's gone too far

Screams of the sinners echos in the moonlight

Searching for safety 

Holding on for dear life

A poor unfortunate becoming a statistic

An evil spirit practicing something sadistic 

Another mourner is walking down the path

Exchanging glances before the aftermath 

A desperate notion there for all to think

Eager for pleasure and living on the brink

There's a presence of evil

A presence of evil

There's a presence of evil standing where you are

There's a presence of evil

A presence of evil

There's a presence of evil

Satan's gone too far

 There's a presence of evil

A presence of evil

There's a presence of evil standing where you are

There's a presence of evil

A presence of evil

There's a presence of evil

Satan's gone too far

How bright the darkest night?

Wailing in pain to wake up the demon

Another soul burning in the firelight 

Life just to end while you're screaming

How dark the brightest day?

Someone just throws it all away

With a knife

The evil that lives inside of you

The evil in us all comes shinning through

With the taking of another life

You know it's true

The presence of evil

Sex Fiend (Revised Version)

SEX FIEND (REVISED VERSION) - Written by Carroll Bryant

I carry thoughts of you in my mind

I had a dream of you last night

Told you I loved you

You laughed and walked away

I woke up shaking

I can’t believe this is happening to me

A prisoner of jealousy

You’re such a bomb

You’re blowing me away

I know you’re faking

I should be hurting, but you see

I have reason to believe

That you’re a sex fiend

Baby, baby, you’re a sex fiend

You’re a sex dream

Baby, baby, you’re a sex dream

You’re a sex queen

Baby, baby, you’re a sex queen

Make love to me

Baby, baby, you’re a sex fiend

I didn’t know what to do

I can’t believe it that I fell for you

Hearing the stories

They frighten me to death

I can’t stop shaking

Yet every time that I see your face

I want to rock you into outer-space

You’re such a skank

Who cannot be contained

And I’m still shaking

I should be hurting, but you see

I have reason to believe

That you’re a sex fiend

Baby, baby, you’re a sex fiend

You’re a sex dream

Baby, baby, you’re a sex dream

You’re a sex queen

Baby, baby, you’re a sex queen

Make love to me

Baby, baby, you’re a sex fiend

Oh, I’m gonna lose it

Gonna bust it, gonna groove it

So girl, you come and prove it

You know what I mean

Oh, I’m gonna lose it

Gonna bump it, gonna bruise it

So girl, you come and do it

I’m gonna make you scream

Right where you be standing, baby

Yeah, right there where you are

Hit the floor

Cream

I carry thoughts of you in my mind

I had a dream of you last night

Told you I loved you

You laughed and walked away

I woke up shaking

I should be hurting, but you see

I have reason to believe

That you’re a sex fiend

Baby, baby, you’re a sex fiend

You’re a sex dream

Baby, baby, you’re a sex dream

You’re a sex queen

Baby, baby, you’re a sex queen

Make love to me

Baby, baby, you’re a sex fiend

Make love to me

Baby, baby, make love to me

You’re a sex fiend

Hit the floor

Too Much Love

TOO MUCH LOVE - Written by Carroll Bryant

And she walked on down to the river

And she washed away her sins

And in the moment that was now or never

She let the new begin again 

And she taught herself a lesson

And then she blessed it with her hands 

And then she left without a reason to wonder

She let the end begin again 

Too much love is not enough love

Too much love is just not enough

Like the fatal rush of a tender touch

Too much love is just not enough 

And she held onto her passion

And then she carved her thoughts in the sky

And in the hopes of keeping all of her secrets 

She let her dreams become her bride

And then she told herself not to worry

And then she sang herself a song

And then she grabbed the next bus and left in a hurry

She reentered where she didn't belong

Too much love is not enough love

Too much love is just not enough

Like the fatal rush of a tender touch

Too much love is just not enough 

Why do you think that the stillness and the breeze

Never meet?

Why do you think that no one believes?

Only in the time when it's time to leave

Will I leave

And she walks on down to the river

And then she cries herself back to sleep

And only in peace does she seem to fall to pieces 

Scream and I will leave

Too much love is not enough love

Too much love is just not enough

Like the fatal rush of a tender touch

Too much love is just not enough 

Why do you think that the stillness and the breeze

Never meet?

Why do you think that no one believes?

Only in the time when it's time to leave

Will I leave

Too much love is not enough love

Too much love is just not enough

Like the fatal rush of a tender touch

Too much love is just not enough 

No Escape

NO ESCAPE - Written by Carroll Bryant

This is it

This is the end of all our dreams

As I watch you pack your bags

And you walk right out on me

Hit or miss

I guess it’s really just all the same

You get in your car

There’s an ache in my heart

I guess it’s how we’re gonna play this game

And no, there’s no escaping what we had

When you cry the tears for all those happy years

They really weren’t all that bad

And so, we can both take credit now

For a job undone

For a song unsung

And the way that it all went down

And no, there’s no escaping that

There it is

Our story in an old nut shell

As my world falls down on me

I can see the end so well

Giving in

To a notion that it’s all worth while

I get to the part

Where your car won’t start

But then you go and walk a country mile

And no, there’s no escaping what we had

When you cry the tears for all those happy years

They really weren’t all that bad

And so, we can both take credit now

For a job undone

For a song unsung

And the way that it all went down

And no, there’s no escaping that

I look at you

You look at me

In our eyes we both can see

That everything is going to change

I look up

You look away

Fancy that, no words to say

And everything is going to change

This is it

This is the end of all our dreams

As I watch you pack your bags

And you walk right out on me

And no, there’s no escaping what we had

When you cry the tears for all those happy years

They really weren’t all that bad

And so, we can both take credit now

For a job undone

For a song unsung

And the way that it all went down

And no, there’s no escaping what we had

When you cry the tears for all those happy years

They really weren’t all that bad

And so, we can both take credit now

For a job undone

For a song unsung

And the way that it all went down

And no, oh no, there’s no escaping that

Peace In My Eyes

PEACE IN MY EYES - Written by Carroll Bryant 

Watching from a distance I can see

The armies marching away

Explosions rock my heart and soul

Watching with nothing to say 

Falling to my knees

I whisper something that I know to be

The truth and nothing but true lies

The world around me still going crazy

But there's peace in my eyes

Living in the middle of the past of what you know

You gave to me

Willing to receive and then reject it

Just because you deceive me

Falling to my knees

I wonder what I will do to hide my needs

From the pleasure of your disguise 

Your love will be the hell in me

But there's peace in my eyes

I can control not a single thing

What they say, the papers, I know they try 

It comes and goes until they wash your brain 

You can wash it all away (to hell)

But there's peace in my eyes

Sleeping at the end of a victory

The bodies of the victims play in a massive grave

No token of appreciation do we believe in

To be given to the ones that we are left to blame 

Falling to my knees 

I shudder to the thought of bleeding

Coming from my eyes and asking why we call ourselves mankind

Your blood will be my stain forever 

But there will be peace in my eyes 

Your blood and I will be together 

Forever

But there will be peace in my eyes

Silent Treatment

SILENT TREATMENT - Written by Carroll Bryant

Why won’t you talk to me?

You never want to talk to me

I think you’re scared of me

What are you afraid of?

You never say what’s on your mind

I mean, what’s really on your mind?

You blow me off almost every time

When your world starts crashing down

Why do you leave me all alone?

Just standing in the silent zone?

Sometimes I would die just to hear a tone from your voice

Rather than to never hear what you know that you wanna say

This silent treatment chills my bones

You won’t even pick up the phone

Even if you heard a dial tone then you know

At least that would be some kind of noise anyway

You communicate with your eyes

Subtlety as you pass me by

Your grunt supplies me with

All the answers that I’m looking for

Well, could you just paint a sign?

You never really paint a sign

When everything’s out of control

You act like everything is fine

Why do you leave me all alone?

Just standing in the silent zone?

Sometimes I would die just to hear a tone from your voice

Rather than to never hear what you know that you wanna say

This silent treatment chills my bones

You won’t even pick up the phone

Even if you heard a dial tone then you know

At least that would be some kind of noise anyway

You won’t even snore for the fact that you just want to make a point

You used to talk in your sleep

Even that doesn’t seem to be the case anymore

Then what’s it all for?

Just pack up your things and walk out of the door

There’s your solution

Why won’t you talk to me?

You never want to talk to me

I think you’re scared of me

What are you afraid of?

Are you afraid that you still feel the same

As you did the first day we met and fell in love

What are you afraid of?

Just stop leaving me all alone

And standing in the silent zone

Sometimes I would die just to hear a tone from your voice

Rather than to never hear what you know that you wanna say

This silent treatment chills my bones

You won’t even pick up the phone

Even if you heard a dial tone then you know

At least that would be some kind of noise anyway

Why do you leave me all alone?

Sitting here in my home

Waiting by the telephone

Just talk to me

Can‘t you see what this silence is doing to me?

Tell me …. What are you afraid of?

Just stop leaving me all alone