Explode

EXPLODE - Written by Carroll Bryant

This is the beginning of the end 

Of what I thought would never last

And it did

No one could possibly understand this

Except for me

And I never

Although

I thought I did

To love, so where does it all go and

How in the world did it get there so fast

When in your mind I'm thinking of you

And in the aftermath of misery

It never did exist 

Is it her I forgot to forget?

Sometimes I wonder

Is it for her that I sacrificed my life?

As I explode into another dimension 

I wonder

I really have to wonder

This is the middle of a story that 

Will never stop or start telling itself

And it did

To me it will always continue

To you it rests where it doesn't exist 

I thought it did

In love, and so it is a feeling

The very essence to a soul to soul

It dies to last

When in my mind, your mind is thinking

That my mind will just explode

Leaving the remnants of memories

That you don't even know they exist

Is it her that my eyes have never seen?

And then it's true that my eyes can only see

Is it for her that I sacrificed my blood?

All in the blame of love

I lie

To myself the truth, and I wonder

And to itself I wonder

This is the end of what begins and

But never ends 

To that becomes it

And it did

You can't recognize the face of the ghost

Because you did not see it and I thought I did

In love, and always to the beggar we beg

For mercy not to thrill the goose

Your ruse just couldn't last

As it took on a life of its own

Mine

To you I give the gift that lasts forever

My secrecy

Is it her that fortifies my heart?

My loneliness and pain

Is it her to never witness me and the nothing that I gained?

Is it her to know it but to me 

To her

I will never know

Is it her for me to never tell

But to know it that somehow I know she knows

And then my mind Explodes ......